It’s not that I feel the need to have a boyfriend, it’s just the fact that I’ve never come close.
My best friend, for the 3 years I’ve known her, has never been single, not that she’s promiscuous, but she just goes from serious relationship to serious relationship. And in all those years, I’ve had no one.
It makes me question myself, and think that perhaps there’s something wrong with me. That I’m broken. It makes me feel unnoticed, and unliked.
It makes me feel alone.
I feel like I’m missing out on a massive part of growing up. And sure people say when it happens it happens, but I can’t help but notice how much it greatly isn’t happening. And that everyone has all these stories, and I have none, and even if I tried to have some, it wouldn’t happen. I’m just never liked back. I’m obviously doing something wrong, not pretty enough, not funny enough, not flirty enough. I wish I had moved to another school for my last years of school, so that I could have been surrounded by new people and see if anything would change.
I just feel shit.